(I will not pretend that I flawlessly understood 'all' of that, since I rely on machine translations. If there were some nuances, they were lost on me.)
If being on Newgrounds doesn't make you happy, it seems like a healthy and sensible decision to look for a place that's better suited to you.
I'd only like to ask one thing of you, though: Once you found a better place for yourself, add a link to your profile here (the [Edit Profile]-button). We have lots of Russian-speaking artists who might also be looking on the side - and let's not forget your fans here.
Neutronex
если честно, я сам себя уже успел конкретно заебать этими возвращениями и уходами XD